The title of this blog makes me cringe so much. That is what happens when you start writing a blog at the age of seventeen, when you are an extremely uncool person. Fifteen years later you look at it and wonder what the hell you were thinking. To clarify, I am still uncool, it’s just…
Category: Thoughts
Weekend in London and Royal Albert Hall accessibility
I’ve always wanted to go to the Proms, and now I live a lot closer to London it actually seemed like a reasonable option this year. On Saturday I went to watch the National Youth Orchestra in the evening, and then on Sunday I went to the relaxed prom. I’ve been to the RAH once…
Lacking control
I struggle a lot with feeling a lack of control. When I feel like a situation has too many variables that are out of my control, I find it much more difficult to engage. I’ll avoid things and places I might enjoy, all because I find the unknown too difficult to deal with. I know…
Changing plans and mental health
I have been finding some things quite challenging as of late. They aren’t new difficulties. They are old difficulties that resurface again and again and again. I can make progress on learning to live with them and I have, but I’m not sure they will ever fully go away. Even so, I always try and…
Running
Ten months ago, I couldn’t run a 5k without having to stop and walk. It wasn’t even my fitness that was the barrier. My legs would hurt so much as the muscles were really tight. I would start running, and within about 500 metres be in so much discomfort I didn’t want to carry on….
Writing
I was inspired to start writing on this blog again. It’s been such a huge part of my life for a long time, but I have also spent a long time neglecting it. I might start writing and post regularly for a couple of months, but inevitably I stop and move on to doing something…
Living in chaos
Who would have thought that having a chunk of flesh from both sides of your chest removed would hurt? Everyone except me, apparently. I went in for a small revision to my top surgery yesterday. It was a comparatively small process, when you consider the original surgery. I was awake for this one, and because…
Impermanence
I’m in the process of moving to the other end of the country. Not my first move, and as my nephew pointed out, at least this one is in the same country, which they haven’t always been. But somehow this one feels a lot bigger. Perhaps it’s because over the last four years, I’ve built…
Sometimes it just sucks
I am currently in Brighton. I recently got a job in the area, so I’m on a frantic hunt for somewhere to live. I am also very stressed. Not because of the house move, although that isn’t helping. I’m stressed because navigating Brighton makes me want to cry. I am trying to remind myself that…
Change
I’ve been thinking about how much has changed since I started writing this blog 14 years ago. Sometimes the name of the blog makes me cringe, because I was so much younger when I came up with it. Yet by now, people know it as my blog, and changing it seems like far more effort…